From the Diary of Judas

It is done.

What has happened cannot be changed.  I dont say that I do not regret it, but if things happened again, I would do the same thing I did.

Would I?

When the pharisees summoned me, I went . When they offered me the 30 silver pieces, I accepted it gladly. I mean, Jesus was always acting so holy, like he was better than the rest of us. Was he?   Argh.

 I know I was his disciple, but the looks he gave me when we were all together...

No they were never condemning. He did not condemn anyone.

However, he knew.

He knew all the times I had tricked some of the other disciples to put money in the common purse, and then took it for my own purposes. He would look at me, and I knew he knew. 

But he would be so smug about the whole thing. Sometimes, whe I was caught, and James and John wanted me punished according to the law, he would tell them to leave me be. Always acting like he knew better than everyone else. I got particularly angry when he announced to the whole group that I would betray him. I left immediately the meal was done. Betray him? He had no idea.

But now, I look at my hands and laugh mirthlessly. I knew he was the son of God, but at the time, I felt so much of a rush that I actually accepted to betray him for 30 silver pieces.

I traded the son of God for...*takes deep breath*  I returned the money, but when I heard he was going to be crucified after the Roman fashion, I ... that should never be done to a man.  

Ther is no mercy for what I have done. 

I twist this rope between my fingers, and I can hear Death calling my name.

#AmazingGrace   #ChristsDeath

Why Does God Allow Pain?

I have asked myself this question a thousand times, and yesterday, this is the answer God showed me. This does not mean from here on out things become dandy (stress-less), but it may help us, especially when it comes to certain things that happen to us in our walk with God. 

Da T.R.U.T.H. (the singer), says that pain is the key to making us holy.

If you had a child that you protected from every danger and injury, we would say that the child is being spoilt. The child would grow up not being able to stand the dangers that will come. You can protect the child from some, but he/she needs to face some pain in order to grow.

Also, the experience will help the child comfort and encourage others who are going through the same situation to be strong.

When the child hurts, the father will stay by him, and sometimes even cry with him, but sometimes may not stop all the pain. It is not because the father hates the child, but knows that the pain is either for a short time, or for a purpose.

That honestly may not make you feel any better (really), but I want us to remember what God says to us in Rom 8:38-39

Rom 8:38  For I am certain that not death, or life, or angels, or rulers, or things present, or things to come, or powers, 

Rom 8:39  Or things on high, or things under the earth, or anything which is made, will be able to come between us and the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. 

No matter what you are going through, be assured that God is with you and loves you, and that every situation that occurs in your life, none of it will stop the good things God has in store for you.

This week, read about Joseph and Daniel and Job. GOd keep you in him till the day of his coming. Amen

Have a grest day. :)

From Herod's Diary,

From Herod's Diary

Today, an innocent man will die. I've seen it happen before. These Jews are so riotous that we have to do almost anything to keep them calm. But today, it wont be my fault. They brought him in, all tattered and bruised. I asked him questions, dared him to confirm the charges against him, but he said nothing. He looked up and stared at me, and I knew he could see into my soul. I tried to make jest of the situationby saying he should perform some miracles for us, but... those eyes. They remind me of just one person- John the Baptist. I was NOT going to let that incidence happen again. I was NOT going to allow myself to be baited into that kind of situation again. But I know this man will die. The lust for his blood is written clearly over the faces of these pharisees.

Let them condemn him themselves. I will have nothing to do with                                                               this man